*Love More, Fear Less
I don't remember how I found this site, but it quickly
became a favorite. The quotes are well selected
and the site radiates a genuine positivity. It's
a good place to go to be inspired.
*The Art of the Steal
A great documentary streaming on Netflix right now.
It presents a sad view of the art world and all of the
money and politics that move it. The husband and I now
struggle with wanting to see the collection but not
really wanting to support what it's become. Watch for
yourself.
*Kiwi & Grapefruit
Can't stop eating these right now. Their brightness
is always welcome during the winter doldrums.
*Daydreaming about clothes
I cannot wait to start wearing real clothes again-
it feels like I live in pajamas and stretch pants now
and all I want is to just be able to feel like I can participate
in the fashion game again. So many clothes in my closet that
I just can't wear.
*Sergei Polunin dancing to "Take Me to Church"
The beauty of dance.
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Taking Leave
My maternity leave officially starts today, and I can
barely put into words what a relief it is.
New York can be such a go-go-go place that
you forget to listen to what your body is saying to you.
I got a real wake up call last weekend by tripping and falling
on some uneven sidewalk. We spent a night getting monitored
in the hospital, everything with baby and I checked out OK, and
we got discharged at 4am. Thankfully the fall happened
about 50ft from our house, and the husband was not far away
so he was able to get home quickly. We called our midwife
and doula and were told to go get checked out, just to be sure
nothing was wrong.
If you are reading this and wondering why you didn't hear about it
sooner it's because I wasn't really telling anyone. It felt like
kind of a weird topic to call people with "hey, I fell but we're fine.",
but I'll share it here and get it out there so I don't really have to
talk about it again. The whole event makes me feel pretty uncomfortable
when I think about it, but it's woven into our birth story now,
so there it will stay. Someday we'll laugh at it, but I'm not ready
to do that just yet.
I took away some important things from the ordeal, and though
I wish I couldhave just realized these things naturally,
sometimes you really need to be hit with them for it
to all finally sink in.
1.) It was time to slow down. Not time to be trying to balance
work with pregnancy brain and dealing with a frigid commute
everyday-hoping that someone (anyone) will actually give you
a seat on the subway.
2.) Accepting that I am so not prepared/centered
for the birth process. At the hospital there were procedures that
were very painful, which also led to bad contractions- granted
this was already a stressful situation where I didn't really want
the outcome to be the birth of our baby. So that does change things
-but I realized for the first time what kind of pains I might feel
in labor and really became aware of how much I needed to focus
on relaxing my body and remaining calm. I know that I will be
in a totally different mindset when I'm actually in labor,
but it was still beneficial to have gone through this experience-
if only to learn that I need to keep meditating and practicing
my relaxation techniques.
It all leads back to self care. From now until the baby is born
I will be resting a lot, eating good foods, drinking lots of
raspberry leaf tea, meditating, going for small walks, and
watching a lot of Poirot mysteries.
Visitors are totally welcome.
barely put into words what a relief it is.
New York can be such a go-go-go place that
you forget to listen to what your body is saying to you.
I got a real wake up call last weekend by tripping and falling
on some uneven sidewalk. We spent a night getting monitored
in the hospital, everything with baby and I checked out OK, and
we got discharged at 4am. Thankfully the fall happened
about 50ft from our house, and the husband was not far away
so he was able to get home quickly. We called our midwife
and doula and were told to go get checked out, just to be sure
nothing was wrong.
If you are reading this and wondering why you didn't hear about it
sooner it's because I wasn't really telling anyone. It felt like
kind of a weird topic to call people with "hey, I fell but we're fine.",
but I'll share it here and get it out there so I don't really have to
talk about it again. The whole event makes me feel pretty uncomfortable
when I think about it, but it's woven into our birth story now,
so there it will stay. Someday we'll laugh at it, but I'm not ready
to do that just yet.
I took away some important things from the ordeal, and though
I wish I couldhave just realized these things naturally,
sometimes you really need to be hit with them for it
to all finally sink in.
1.) It was time to slow down. Not time to be trying to balance
work with pregnancy brain and dealing with a frigid commute
everyday-hoping that someone (anyone) will actually give you
a seat on the subway.
2.) Accepting that I am so not prepared/centered
for the birth process. At the hospital there were procedures that
were very painful, which also led to bad contractions- granted
this was already a stressful situation where I didn't really want
the outcome to be the birth of our baby. So that does change things
-but I realized for the first time what kind of pains I might feel
in labor and really became aware of how much I needed to focus
on relaxing my body and remaining calm. I know that I will be
in a totally different mindset when I'm actually in labor,
but it was still beneficial to have gone through this experience-
if only to learn that I need to keep meditating and practicing
my relaxation techniques.
It all leads back to self care. From now until the baby is born
I will be resting a lot, eating good foods, drinking lots of
raspberry leaf tea, meditating, going for small walks, and
watching a lot of Poirot mysteries.
Visitors are totally welcome.
Wednesday, February 11, 2015
36 Weeks
Here we are, the home stretch.
Next week I'll be considered full term,
and at that point it's up to him to choose
a birthday. (Though I'm hoping he gives us
a little more time to prepare for his arrival)
His room is coming together nicely,
though my little studio space is slowly getting
pushed out. We'll have to get very creative with
the use of that space.
The aches and pains are still very present,
but that's just how it goes at this point.
He is slowly moving further down and
when he does it's not exactly pleasant.
The first 2 times I felt those pains it scared me,
now I just try to picture him diving
deeper into an ocean and remembering that all
of these little pains are for a bigger purpose.
Next week I'll be considered full term,
and at that point it's up to him to choose
a birthday. (Though I'm hoping he gives us
a little more time to prepare for his arrival)
His room is coming together nicely,
though my little studio space is slowly getting
pushed out. We'll have to get very creative with
the use of that space.
The aches and pains are still very present,
but that's just how it goes at this point.
He is slowly moving further down and
when he does it's not exactly pleasant.
The first 2 times I felt those pains it scared me,
now I just try to picture him diving
deeper into an ocean and remembering that all
of these little pains are for a bigger purpose.
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